update

I've come somewhat to a point of freedom from this thing. I've chosen to walk in this freedom, and chosen to let this beautiful thing stay just that.

my heart...is fickle. But it will learn to enjoy the beauty of this life that the Lord has created for me.

when will I learn to enjoy living one day at a time? It's not a bad thing to look to the future, but why can't I be content with what I have? With the friends and relationships that I have right now? Heart, appreciate every day individually. The Lord created each and every one with you in mind.

He knows the plans that he has for you, plans to prosper you and give you a hope and a future.

Lord, I know you know the perfect plans you have for me, can I ask that you let me in on them sometime? Can i ask for things? A job, direction pertaining to school? A wife? Someone to love? Or a heart that is content?

You are my hope, Jesus, you are my one real thing.

oh to fall deeper in love with you...